10:10 AM

Sunday 7June 2020

I think we cant make it up to way as we wanted,so this time m giving up on my self putting you to focus in your life, keeping touch with me does not make sense at all, i really do not want to let it happen where i have to feel guilt on my self. It was amazing time we had all together as of yesterday. I will miss u passang go ahead and move on with your dream and goals in life, rather than sticking with bull shit person like me.tc wanted to see you one of the most successful women in world 🌎.

Am I supposed to be happy to get free from the relationship that wasn’t working between us at all? Or Am I supposed to be heartbroken?

I am confused. I am confused to be happy or to be sad to be far away from the person.

To whom I have loved with all my heart,

To whom I shared my first kiss,

To whom I smiled with joy and pleasure.

Oh! My poor confused heart.

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What shall I do to make myself feel sleepy? After having tired day from work and class, I am still not being able to have rest at night because I dont feel sleepy. It makes me dizzy and weak for the whole following day.

The only things constant in this world is change. The change may be good or bad. However, there is always a reason why a person changed. It may be because of another person, experience or because of their current situation. Let’s not judge why since they have their reasons but accept them for change is something INEVITABLE.

I shouldn’t be here waiting for him at airport. I am embarrassed. He didn’t even noticed that I am here. I felt like I am here for no reason. Today, I think I again made a mistake by being here. I wonder why is it so hard to love someone. Why we keeps on desiring to be with someone for whom even your presence doesn’t matter.

Once I said, “I don’t dare to love when I want to love. I will regret it when I want to persue it.”

25 January 2020

7:02 AM

I am neither happy nor sad. I am confused within self. I recently had broke up with my boyfriend few months ago. I found out that before we were in relationship he already had girlfriend. Even we broke up, he still stayed engaged with his old girlfriend. One month before he went to vacation in his hometown and for sure he met his loved one.

However, we were still staying together as a house mate and good friends. Today, he is coming back to Australia and I am here at airport to receive him.